While our stores are closed, I have been getting outside (when I am not cuddling my cats at home). I enjoy being in nature and fishing, especially. I have been passing time with walks and drives around Lake Auburn and fishing on Cousins Island in Yarmouth; my favorite fishing spot.
In the last few years I have begun to do things that make me happy. Things that are just for me, that I do on my own. There is a running joke in my household, and the pun is intended. The joke is, “Sara likes to run alone in the rain so that people can’t see her cry.” While it is in fact a joke, there is some truth in it. I do prefer to run, alone, in the rain, and yes, there are times when I cry. Not for sadness, just with the overwhelming flow of emotions that I will otherwise hold down under the surface, so firmly that they can’t help but stay there, suspended, until the rain allows them to bubble up and break the surface tension, like little pockets of popped air coming from deep in the mud.